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Saturday, April 30, 2005

Well, stuff still sucks, but not as bad (Yep. Another Narcipost.)

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Well, it turns out that while I didn't get the warehouse job I wanted (but the money would have been sweet), I have a VERY good chance of advanceing to manager at Dunkin Donuts. Well, manager-in-training. Sure, it's not very prestegious, but it's better then nothing at all. And maybe it will convince my sweets that I'm stable enough to live with if I'm making over $2000 a month.

Of course, the fact remains that she still isn't sure she want's to spend her life with me. *sigh*. There's just no winning. It takes all the running I can do just to stay in the same place.

I just don't get it. I have been trying as hard as I can. I'm only human. I'm only a man.

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Friday, April 29, 2005

Narcipost ahead...

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Well, let's see. My Darling has decided not to live with me 'till a few months after Baby is born at best. And then, as if the world was saying "Screw You, buddy!", I didn't get the job at the warehouse I was trying for (it paid up to $20 an hour, if you were a hard worker). But I guess it's a good thing she decided not to live with me. After all, if I can't take care of her, why should she live with me? I just feel so damn powerless. I'm afraid, and I don't know what to do! I NEED to be able to take care of our child and it's mother, and it's looking like I won't be able to. At least, not for a while.

It's just so weird. I've always felt that I can do anything. "Just gotta work hard, you can make it happen." And now, I've come up against a wall. And it HURTS. I've got people depending on me, and I...

I don't know. Wish me luck, everyone.

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Monday, April 25, 2005

Another sample of my writing...

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Well, just because this for some reason got a 97% from my english teacher (I'm not complaining, but I don't get it, I'm not THAT good of a writer), I had to post it. It's my second essay for that class.

No Time for Family Time

My dear reader will find no surprise when informed that we live in a dog-eat-dog world. As such, it makes sense that we pursue stability of what ever kind we can to the fullest extent we are able. Sadly, it seems to the author that financial stability is often regarded as more of a priority then family stability. Every day we hear about the hero “CEO Dads” who put in the 60 hour weeks to get product X out to market Y by time Z. Or the fabled “Career Moms” who supposedly manage to juggle the job of their dreams, the PTA meetings, CEO Dad, and of course, the kids. Now, any mathematician will tell you that as there are only 24 hours in a day, you can’t get 25 hours of work out of them. Something’s got to give. And all too often, it’s the kids.

Now, the author is not trying to berate the poor families who NEED 2 parents working overtime just to pay rent, food, and heat. It’s a shame that our society hasn’t adopted a decent living wage, but that’s fodder for another rant. Instead, the target is parents who either work for the sake of work, or can’t seem to do without cable TV, 6 cell phones, and “A GREAT long distance plan!” on their landline.

In the case of the former, let there first be a congratulations said. It’s a wonderful thing to find a job that both stimulates and reinvigorates. That said; a person shouldn’t start a family if said person is still in the building stages of their career. Or, if there are no plans to leave the building stages of the career question, one might consider never starting a family. Children are a full time job. No, scratch that. They’re a full time job with mandatory over-time. A person wouldn’t be expected to take on two 50 hour per week jobs. Why should this be any different?

As for the second category, there is also much to be said. First and foremost is: Don’t spend what’s not there. If Wally Wageslave makes $200 dollars a week, pays $500 each month in rent and utilities, and $300 a month on food, where is there room for cable? Or even dining out? Wouldn’t it make more sense if Wally dropped the extra $200 dollars a month he has in miscellaneous expenses, dropped the part time job he had to take care of it, and spent more time with his family, the very people that poor Wally likely started breaking his back for in the first place?

This soon-to-be family man has no delusions about how money changes hands. If a person wants something nice, they have to work for it. But if said person is going to settle down, and start a family with a husband & wife setup (2.6 kids are optional) they need to get their priorities straight. Many people don’t see that there’s a difference between building your life around your work, and building your work around your life. Or worse, many people deify the former, while demonizing the later.
All this doesn’t mean that a person can’t have a wonderful, meaningful job that they enjoy and look forward going to. In fact, if one CAN achieve this, it’s quite likely that it would only be good for the family in general. All that is being said is to remember why you’re even working in the first place: your family.

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

Sample of my writing...

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First, sorry to have not posted for a week. I've been busy with school and work. I'll try not to let it happen again. :)

But for any current readers, I'm gonna post a sample of my writing in the form of an essay I wrote a while ago. It garnered a 100%, so I assume it's not TOO bad. :D

At any rate, here it is:


The Dawn of a Person

Building a rollercoaster must be a massive undertaking. Making that first plan, hoping that you got your calculations right (else there will be little roller-ing and less coaster-ing), finding a suitable spot to break ground (or risk a falling coaster) and deciding upon a theme, all before ever picking up a power tool. Building a person, on the other hand, is quite a different matter. Sure, it’s just as hard, if not harder. However, it’s a lot easier to get started. The first few feet down the drop can come during a half hour lunch break, or a whole night of passion. Either way, you end up on one heck of a rollercoaster, with all the ups and downs inherent in the nature of the beast. And just like our thrill ride, you can’t stop this one in the middle. There’s just too much momentum.

With that said, there’s not a lot of reason for us to stop this ride. We were planning on it someday, and mom always says to stop procrastinating (though she claims she wasn’t referring to THIS!). So, we’ve buckled in, and we’re ready to see where it takes us. Currently, we’re not even up the first hill. We just had our first ultrasound, and we can still hear the chains pulling us skyward.

Waiting in the office was worse then waiting in line at an amusement park. At least at your local Six Flags you can see the multitudes before you, and have a way to gauge the wait, even if it’s just by number of people getting sunstroke waiting for their turn (2 per hour last time I was there). At the doctor’s office, you walk in, and wait in an empty room for who knows how long. Clearly, not the secretaries, else we would have been scheduled for later.

And it’s not like it’s an easy wait, either. At the theme park, you’re likely with friends, enjoying the experience, without a care in the world (except for the $8 you just spent on a single hotdog & a Pepsi). My mate and I, on the other hand, were stretched thin with worry. We had more thoughts milling around in our head then customers waiting in queue for Superman: Ride of Steel: Concern for the baby’s health, worry for Deanna’s safety, not to mention when we can learn the gender of our little bundle of love. And on top of many more thoughts cavorting around in our heads was an overriding anticipation of seeing OUR baby for the very first time.

But, just like at Six Flags, after the waiting is over and you get called into that special group known as the “Next Up’s” and you’re loaded, locked, and given verbal waivers, it’s all fun from there. In our case, we were called in with a subdued “Deanna? Marvin? You can come in now” by the nurse. After we filed into the room, the nurse had Deanna strip down for the ultra sound, and hop up onto the examination table (which is a bad thing: she hates the stirrups). And then the doctor came in and went to work, and let me tell you: it was pure, unrestricted nirvana from there on out.

Never before have I experienced the simple brilliance of watching something that I helped create move of its own volition. A child encased in a veritable sea of amniotic fluid, moving to the subtle rhythms of life at that most primordial stage. Nothing is more perfect, more astounding then that most precious thing.

This is a feeling that, try as I may, I can not seem to convey to my non-expecting friends. Nor is it easy to tell someone with no experience with a ‘coaster just how much thrill is to be had by seemingly putting your life in peril. Imagine, if you will, that for the space of ten whole minutes your entire universe, sun, moon, stars, heaven and earth, revolves around a tiny wisp on a black and white screen. And, at that same time, around a minute body, not the size of a thimble, in the very core of your expecting life-mate. The second hand by which your world keeps time is dictated by the rapid pumping of its dust sized heart. These seconds expand to minutes, and minutes to seem like hours as you sit by, awed by the deceptively simple act of it twitching its future arms. You get both the first big downhill thrill of the ride to come, and at the same time, it’s as if it’s just a prelude: the ‘coaster roaring by overhead as you wait in line for the main event.

There is no more exciting journey I can think of then the one we’re beginning now: The quest to create life, and foster it as it matures. For the next 18 years we’ll be walking a tight rope fraught with overprotection on one side, and negligence on the other. And then to watch, and giggle, and prepare to spoil rotten the life that it itself begets. Perhaps we’ll take our grandchild to Six Flags 2029. Or, perhaps we won’t. Either way, we have to get over the first drop before we can enjoy the loop-de-loops and the corkscrews. Let alone the second ride.

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sporeadic information on Spore...

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A few of you may have heard of a new game on the horizon put out by a guy named Will Wright (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Will_Wright): Spore ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spore_%28game%29). While that may or may not be the final title for the game, it is the currently recognized one. The game Spore is looking to be a MOST ambitions creation. The premise? To take your single celled organism from the depths of the ocean to the stars, all while making it what YOU want it to be. It even generated a star, in the form of Gaming Steve ( http://www.gamingsteve.com)!

Now, as if that wasn't neato enough, good old Will is also planning on redefineing the development process with this game. Currently, the game makers make everything in a game. Or at least most of it. Will want's this to be a game where the Dev's only make the framework for the game. The rest of it (the characters, citys, ect.) are put together by players using procedural content generation. There are a bunch of guys out there working on making HUGE games outta VERY small codebases ( http://theprodukkt.com/kkrieger.html). Now, they can't work magic, so what do they do? High compression, algorythmic creation, and of course, LOTS of effeciency through ASM code.

I for one, can't wait to see what comes of this. I've always been a fan of Will's games (w00t Simcity!!!), and this one doesn't look likely to disappoint.

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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Fantastic news for Nintendo DS fans!

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There have been a couple of BIG announcements over on The Mod Gods (http://www.themodgods.com) recently. The first is that the scene has successfully created a method to access the DS from wifi alone! Granted, it takes special wifi cards on your computer (a list of which can be found here: ) but the important thing is that if you DO have one of the cards listed, you DON'T NEED TO GET YOUR HANDS ON A PASSME TO RUN CODE!!! It's REALLY cool.

The second thing is that a guy named Dark Fader and HIS crew have found a way to access the firmware on the DS, and it's not too complex, either. From what I gather, you won't even need to solder, just short it out for the time it takes to update it once, and then from then on you're set!

So, in closeing, not only can we now run code without expensive hardware (you're still gonna need a flash chip, but that has uses anyway, and you might have wanted one even after it was hacked), and soon we'll have custom firmware running around on our DS's! YAY!!!

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Monday, April 11, 2005

Sorry! Had some technical problems! Also, Linux!!!

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I know I have not posted for a while, but I was having technical difficulties. Blogger decided to eat half of my source code!!! So I've been a while, because college has to come first. Then work. And before college, my Darling, but you get the picture. :)

Well, so we have some content in this post, I'd just like to take a few moments to mention a neat idea I was recently exposed to: an OS on a jumpdrive (or thumb drive, or what ever). The first I saw was called Damn Small Linux (http://damnsmalllinux.org), or DSL for short. It clocks in at about 50 megs, and can run off of a boot CD, jumpdrive, network, or even natively in Windows! How cool is that?

But after that, I found a distro that could do all the same stuff, but it loaded itself RIGHT INTO RAM!!! So, needless to say, it was a lot faster then DSL. "It" refers to Puppy Linux (http://www.goosee.com/puppy/). Again, boot it how you wanna. I'm hooked. I wonder if Slackware can boot off of a REALLY big thumbdrive...? :D

At any rate, I intend to resume regular posts. Thank you for your time, and goodnight, fair readers!

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Friday, April 08, 2005

New Pope is once in a lifetime?

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Dunkin Donuts sucks. At least, to work for. Mmm... Coolatta.... Arrgghhhh.......

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Honestly, the donuts are ok (but often, at least at my store, they're old), I HATE the coffee (but that's a matter of taste, I'm sure), but most of all, I hate the disposibilty the owners seem to feel towards their employees. Now, I know that as an Olimpic class Java Juggler I'm not too hard to replace (honestly, a monkey could be trained to pour coffee), but you'd think that sense Dunkin Donuts relies on REPEAT customers (Honestly, I'd say that AT LEAST half of our customers are there once per week. Many more are there daily, more often then not two or three times.) they'd recognize that a happy employee equals an effective employee. No. Of course not. That'd be too easy. Instead they take away our tips (which it CLEARLY says we can collect in the handbook), take away many of our free drinks and food (the only reason I agreed to work there), and to top it off, they've started to treat us all like theives. Bastards.

How ever, let me just say this: The managment blows (Owner, Regional Manager, etc.) but the on site crew is awesome. Best job I've ever had as far as crew goes, except Bromley (http://www.bromley.com). I miss Bromley.....

But yeah, as far as Dunkin Donuts being evil and stuff, did you know that the Dunkin' Donuts puts more then 300 tons of filters into landfills a year? Remember, that's not total trash produced, not the biodegradable coffee grind that they throw into landfills, or anything else. JUST COFFEE FILTERS. They throw away more then 150,000 tons of grounds (assuming that each pot produces only one pound of water satureated grounds, which is likely on the low end). Now, I can't do much about the grounds, but if they switched to reusable coffee filters (http://www.mileskimball.com/jump.jsp?itemType=PRODUCT&iProductID=6137) they'd save over 1,000 tons of landfill space after only 4 years.

Granted, there are much worse companies out there (http://www.microsoft.com Sorry, couldn't resist), but this is just one that I choose to pick on.

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Movie Review: Starship Troopers

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From time to time here at The Monkey Dog Cafe, I intend to do standard reviews of various things: Music, Games, Porn (well, maybe not, who knows?), and others, such as Movies. The movie de jour is a fantastic film known by the unassuming name of Starship Troopers. And what a film!

It starts off with what seems like a news report, or perhaps a recruting clip. Anyone who watches the film will notice a, well, campie attitude. Think World War 3,000 and you'll understand what I mean. Even the dullest wit will see a razor sharp line drawn between the propaganda of yesteryear and what is going on in the movie.

Now, normaly I hate war films. That's correct, I didn't even like Full Metel Jacket much (it was ok). But something about adding lasers to a film always seems to make it better, just like ninjas. Yep, this is a war film that I like.

Everything in it from the characters to the sets is very well done, considering the budget allotted. The FX arn't the best in the world, but they're WAY more then adequite. All told it's a very pretty film. I can't think of any big name actors in it, but the guy who played Luke Skywalker (http://www.markhamill.com/) proved that you don't have to be big name to make a lasting impact. Even if you're never in another film people have heard of again. Poor Mark...

But anyway, it's a great film. It really seems to portray the mortality of being in the army, while not getting dogged down too much. Sure, it's a bit tongue-in-cheek at times, but hey, at least it's fun. My Sweets and I had one decent night curled up on the couch watching it. GREAT film for any Sci-Fi lover. And if you're a War Buff, check it out. It might be worth your time.

And read the paperback if you get the chance. You won't regret it!

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Monday, April 04, 2005

Pure Entropy!

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Well, I'm sure many of my readers have used a peer to peer... er, never mind. I'm sure many of my readers are, well, Jebus, I don't know.

Bagh, if I get any readers, I'm sure that eventuly, ONE of them will have used a peer-to-peer program, such as Napster, Imesh, Kazaa, or Shareaza (the last one is fantastic, and as such is the only one I'll list a link to: http://www.shareaza.com/). Oh, by the way, DON'T USE KAZAA! It's EVIL!!!

Now, dear reader (that's right, I'm talking to you), you might be nervious of P2P software because of all the hullabalu in the papers recently about the RIAA (http://www.riaa.org). Or, perhaps you just want your freedom of speach protected. Well, there's a partial solution for your privite wishis: Entropy (http://entropy.stop1984.com/).

It's built to interface with Freenet (http://freenet.sourceforge.net/, but to also be much more effecient (it's all coded in C). I'm looking forward to using it for a while, just to see how it works.

Basicly, it's the closest thing we have right now to an annomous form of online communication. Sure, the folks over at The Big Hack (http://www.thebighack.org) are working hard to provide a solution that doesn't require sneaking about, but 'till that's around, we're just going to have to live with the alternatives, such as our good friend Entropy (once more, that's http://entropy.stop1984.com/).

Power to the masses, let democracy show!

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

Ok, I hate SOME parts of life...

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My Sweets is still firmly in love with me, and I with Her, of course. It's Her mom. She makes Her feel like she's wasteing Her time dateing me. It's so maddining, but at least my Sweets will meet me online again tomorow night again. I'm looking forward to it. I can't wait.

I love her so much. I'd marry her if I could.

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I hate life.

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Well, today my girlfriend broke up with me. We've been seeing each other heavy for six months, and She's pregnent with our kid. I wouldn't mind the break up so much if it was for a decent reason, like she hated me or something, or I did something to hurt her. But no. The reason is because her mom makes her life a living hell when I'm mentioned. I can't fucking beleive it. I know, she's only 18, still gotta be a girl, but still. It irks me. I love this girl. I WANT to be a father to our child. I'm not trying to run away, in fact I'm doing collage at night, and working a full 40 hour week. I'm rip shit. I can not be good enough for her parents. I'm just hopeing she calls. I've been crying all day. I just don't get it. Last night she told me she'd marry me if her familey wasn't involved. Today, she breaks it off. I just hope it's not perminent. I'm so scared it is. I'm worried about her. I'm worried about our kid. I miss her so much.

And Sweets, if you're reading this, know that I love you. SO much. So very much.

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I love my Sweets.

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Saturday, April 02, 2005

Testing Audioblogger / I hate other drivers

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We don't need no stinkin' iPod, we gots a Rock Box!

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Have you ever had iPod envy? Well, I haven't, but after seeing all the cool stuff they could do that my Archos Recorder V1 couldn't, I was starting. Somehow, even though I've hacked into my xbox (http://www.xbox-scene.com), it had never occured to me that there might be a community of hackers out there makeing firmware upgrades to popular items. Sure, I'd heard about it on some select DVD players, but I never figured that my MP3 player might have such an option. Enter the Rock Box (http://www.rockbox.org).

It's a complete rewrite of the firmware for a host of Archos MP3 players. It takes something that once only played MP3s (and that poorly) and upgrades it to be a crappy PDA with calender functions, calculator, games (Wormlets ROCKS!), hell, even a greyscale image viewer and movie viewer. VERY nice. And yes, it still plays MP3s. Infact, it plays them better. I don't know why, I assume the makers didn't take much time to make sure it worked right, but now when I fast forward to the next song, it WORKS (before, it would sometimes crash the player)! It even has a car adapter mode (which the original firm ware was sadly lacking).

Very impressive. I'm hooked. I went out and blew $30 bucks yesterday on adapters for it. My MP3 player went from almost useless (I still used it as a big moble HDD, 15 gigs is hard to pass up), to being my third most carried gizmo (right behind my crappy cell phone (kyocera KX414) and my Nintendo DS).

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Web Browsers: Which one's for you?

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Now, just a month ago I would have laughed at that question. "Clearly, it's Opera" I would have said. Perhaps you'd say different. What ever. It's a matter of taste in many cases. You like things done one way, you get browser A. Like 'em done another, get B. Honestly, I'd still go with Opera in most cases, but sadly it's becomeing more and more of a multi-browser world for me.

You see, even though browsers such as Opera (http://www.opera.com) and Firefox (http://www.getfirefox.com) comply with http standards, there are still many sites out there that have taken it upon themselves to only work correctly with IE or Netscape. Some pages are designed to graceful degredation (see http://www.anybrowser.org) for more on that subject), but many more are set up with only IE users in mind, thus forcing a choice on you if you want any productivity on that webpage.

Now, currently, the best solution I've come up with is a browser shell for IE. I'm using Avant (http://www.avantbrowser.com) right now, and it's ok. It's no Opera, or even a Firefox, but it does ok. And the pages I NEED displayed correctly ARE displayed correctly.

Just be warned that a browser shell like Avant is JUST as open to security flaws as the engine that it was built on (ie. IE). So avoid hard core donkey porn. Or http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Goatse.cx for that matter.


***UPDATE***

I'm now a serious Fire Fox nut. I just LOVE all the extensions you can have.

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Friday, April 01, 2005

First post! Woot!

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Ok, I've never run a blog before, but here goes. Welcome all to the Monkey Dog Cafe. It's a little slice of heaven that I plan to call home for a while at least. You know, unless it gets insanely popular. Then I'll rake in all the cash I can from this milk cow. Heh, I mean.... never mind.......

Well, I'd have to say that this is going to revolve around cool stuff I find. I wanted to make it all about me, but honestly, I want a larger readership then my mom and the creepy old lady down the street. Hello, Mrs. Bigby.

Now, for interesting stuff. Any of you DS owners? I hope so, because there's a lot of neat stuff going on out there. The've got arbitrary code running off of a pass through, and they're makeing more steps every day toward a version of Linux running on our precious silver and black box.

Just wanting to say, Gmail is the best email I've yet delt with. Free (google for gmail invites spooler to get your own), easy to use, powerful, and POP3 access to boot. Sweet.

Ok, that's all I have time for in this post. Got to get to renovating my 'blog. Later, Mrs. Bigby. Love you Mom. Heh...

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